Thursday, November 20, 2008
well, it has been a very long time since ive last blogged.
there really isnt that much to talk about. basically i go to school ( most of the time i skip)
i do my hw (most of the time i rush thru it 15 mins b4 handing up)
i try to cook to feed myself. ( which sucks almost all the time. but i do believe im improving)
my exam is coming in a weeks time ( i should get started on revision)
i haven climbed for a long time ( really need to find time to climb)
my 1st school term is almost ending ( omg time flies)
ive made loads of new frens (damn pleased to know them)
and i miss all my frens and family back at home ( i really do miss them and my life at home)
:)
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Wednesday, October 15, 2008
In the cold afternoon of England.
you cant help but miss the warmth and sunshine of sunny Sg.
Sometimes i wish i could do things ive never thought i will ever have the chance to do. To have the courage to say things I will never dare. To think thoughts that only exist in fantasies. Sometimes i wish just for once things can happen like those in the fairy tales. Things to happen in real life. Because, sad but true i am very ordinary. I lead a very ordinary life. Sometimes its so simple that maybe people, not in my shoes will long for it. But people in my shoes will then long for something other than simple. However, people like me will still always take the easy road out, following the norm and doing things their peers will agree on and always trying to fit in. But even the most ordinary and most simple person in the world has a story and an adventure once in their life. In this case, i wonder what is my story. What can i tell when i finally sit back at the end of my life and ponder.. what is my life story. Where is the drama and pain with tears and joy? Where is the exhilaration? Where is me?
I think along my years of growth i have eventually developed into an very ordinary and plain girl, which I believe i wasn't when i was a child. I used to dream of big things. Now, I'm just a student wondering if my assignments and work are good enough for me to pass.
I hope one day, my story will come. And that's when the most simplest girl will shine.
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
my visa is finally approved. this means that the time for me to go away will be drawing near.
I cannot believe im doing this now. As in i never expected myself to leave my haven. 2.5 years ago, i left too reluctantly, but the fact that i din know what to expect there made things easier. Now that i can truly comprehend the apprehension the loneliness and emptiness and the people you love that you have to leave behind when you leave home.
It sucks to experience this all over again.
united kingdom was never my choice to travel to. i mean im mostly the aussie girl. ie. going down under, beach, sun, sand and sea and laid back ozzie accent. Not the gloomy uptight, freezing cold uk. haha..
i guess life always have their mysteries no matter how hard you plan your life.
i have about one more month left in sg. I dunno if im wasting time here or im making full use of the time. But i can say, i honestly feel at bliss now. Away from the stress, the workload and everything unpleasant. lol.
what can i say, i like to be in my comfort zone. but being out of it just makes you a stronger person. just pray hard you survive it. haha. oh well.
I hope this will be a pleasant 1 more month for me.. haha maybe something magical can happen ..for eg.. finding my prince! whHAhahha...come on.. im running out of time already. and im getting no younger. After this summer break. its time for hard core biz already. no time for fun laughters peace and love! so i gotta buck up and spend every single min to da max.
speaking of which.. i watched an entire anime finish today.. -.- ( talk bt spending quality time)
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
its a monday. issit?
right its is a monday. haha.. many days have passed since leaving imu. Life is getting better and better i must say. sitting at home. sweating under the hot sun as the sun rays penetrate my curtains and windows to my desk. ( which is really pathetic. cuz my mom threw away my old study desk. now its just some ah pek coffee table desk. )
in the morning i met up with bee hui for mac breakfast at singpost. had a nice meal! haha.. then sat down and chatted for a long time. but she had to leave early to meet her fren in city hall.
so now im back home. singing to the jason mraz "im yours" again and again. i have to admit ..it is one god damn good song. haha.. a very summer song. haha.. laid back and relaxing.
maybe im gonna continue to read my harry potter.. cuz i haven got the chance to read book 6. so im taking this opportunity to read...
acutally thank god the NUS elective did not pull thru. otherwise i dun think i have the time and leisure to enjoy my time back home. haha
but damn.. they took my 6 bucks and did not return me. stupid. geesh
anws.. later ill be meeting my pri school fren later at night. so i guess its something i can look forward tonight. hmm
tml will oso be another slacky day.
wow.. i love my life. haha
i love it love it love it.
other than my room. its a total mess..total mess...:) oh well. it has me written all over.
come on.. wad's thazin without a mess!
i pity whoever is gonna marry me or roommates.. be very scared.
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Monday, August 04, 2008
And again,
today is a special day too.
its the birthday of my very good fren who is no longer here to celebrate
xianliang, happy 22th birthday.
Thank you so much for everything. You have always been part of my life. And i will always think of you. I hope the heavens are nice for you.. but if you ever do get bored, just come down to earth and have some fun alright!
we all miss you here.
you will always have a special place in our hearts.
i miss you and love you.
hugs,
thazin
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i have to say, life back home isnt bad at all.. just that maybe im not used to everything again.. like my room. its has changed 360 degrees
anw.. i do miss my life back in kl. all my frens. yesterday, i was reading the letters i got for the farewell when i departed kl to sg. it really touched me. and for once, i let myself cry. i mean usu im the type that dun cries.. i tend to move along and get to the next level.. maybe that's why saying goodbye by seem emotionless to me. but actually deep down, im just falling apart. but the defense mechanism just makes you harden.
i miss you guys the pents house girls which includes sumi bush shaz roch nabila and arthi ( which ill be spending the next 3 years of my life with)
I miss my dear housemates too lydia and brendan..
and of cuz the psedo crib and penthsemate shin ann!
haha.
and how can i forget the machas.. who have been my frens for so long and helped my survive in imu for so long. i miss you guys.. your laughters.. the lame jokes. the fooling ard.. and the clubbing moments.
everyone and anyone i know in imu and make my life seem so complete there. the hardships we been thru, the joy we laughed together. the international club meetings which i always seem to forget to attend.. haha..
life is gonna be tough without you guys.
but i promise ill work hard from now on.. so that i can be a really good doctor that you guys can be proud of.. and the same goes to all of you.!
i miss you so much so so very much.!
its has been my pleasure and honour to share part of my life story with all of you.
hugs and kisses.
thazin ( big T)
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Thursday, June 26, 2008
oh crap. i have 3 more days. and i still have CNS and GIT and half of CVS..
crap man
i have to have a contingent plan now!!
skip CNS go to summaries of GIT. screw it if i dunno the details.. at least maybe i can answer something is better than nothing.! ( i pray!)
oh my GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
grr
frickin out big time!-.-"""""""
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
if there is a song to describe how i feel right now. its would be All fall Down- one republic.
its 6.37am, i woke up at 4 to study. but slept damn early as well. i have so much more to study. I have so much more.. god.. i hope i can finish all these in time. please man..
but as i was studying i started to recall this place next to my place. Currently its the Sheng Siong there. (geesh i hate tt place cuz its so dirty now. but then again its cheap supermart products)
anyway, previously that place used to be an old cinema, then a City harvest Church took over it and now it belongs to Sheng Siong after City harvest upgraded and got a bigger and better church.
Since the building has been there for many years they have this very nice huge shady carpark with big trees giving shelter to cars. then again, beware of bird poo.
Whenever i walk past and thru the carpark to reach home, that place always gave me a feeling like when i fall in love, its gonna be something like that, the trees around you, leaves falling down.the autumn flavor type. Surprising, leaves do actually fall down from there everytime, cause the tree is kinda like the rainforest trees, i guess they shed all year round?
its a pretty awesome place honestly, but now, because of sheng siong's presence, the area is more commercialized to fit the growing crowd and the trunks and fishes..(man it stinks)
oh well, i guess things do change. environment changes. but the best part of all are the memories.:) keeps you smiling even though its no longer there.
:)
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